God~can you hear me? I had tried to talk to you but you never answer. Why?

Please advice what should I do. I really need you. I knew you love me and I love you too.

I knew this is a good job that can build me up and I believe I could be someone that stand on the stage but now I really felt fall down although I seems like never start moving. Am I?

God bless me please. Amen.